Some Wolf with a Tablet

I love my husband but I feel guilty that I enjoy masturbation more than sex. It’s nothing against him or anything he does, I’m just not comfortable with myself during sex. I’m always thinking that I should be doing something, saying something, going at a different pace or make one of a million minor adjustments that might make the experience better for him, rather than myself. I enjoy bottoming, but I’m always paranoid that I’m not clean. The only time I can really get in the zone is while we’re frotting or mutually masturbating.

Masturbation is so much easier to manage. I don’t have anyone else to disappoint. I can work myself the exact way I want to, I can drag it out or be done in 5. Everything is up to me and easily controlled.

I feel bad that I don’t properly accommodate his needs, but he accepts me the way I am and I love him.　

I really wish Audiosurf had a playlist freeride setting. I could very comfortably have the visuals going on my other monitor all day.

Just got back from the doctor, got another cortisone shot in each knee. It’s a little early to have bad knees at 28. This is round two and the last set was a year ago. Oh well, gotta work on strengthening my right knee at the very least to try not to go through this again next year.

Whee!

I’m trying to do homework.

I need to generate content and yours is not appropriate.